I am 16yrs old. My name is caitlyn. I
suffered from anorexia for about a year
and half. I was hospitalized. I will not
mention specific weights because I know it
can trigger people. But I was at a bad
point and pretty close to death. That
hospital......Lets just say I hope it
burns down. It helped me physically,
mostly forcefully. Mentally it did
absolutely nothing. I started beating it
on my own. But my fear ( I had a specific
fear causing my eating disorder. No, it
was not body image related) still
continued eventually I went into a day
program at a place called high focus.
That place is probably what saved me.
Anyway im babbling now but about 2yrs
later or so I gained much of the weight
back and then some (mostly because I grew
about 3inches) and my blood levels are now
normal. The problem is I have
osteoporsis, I found this out for the
first time in the hospital. I was hoping
now, 2yrs later, I would be almost free
from it. But no, of course not, about a
week ago I went for a bone density test
and its still there. I have brittle old
lady bones and I need to be on 1200mg of
calcium otherwise it can turn into serious
complications. Im scared..And I have been
crying for about an hour now. I just
wanted to finally be normal. But no of
course not. So now I have the picture of
pet cemetary in my head and im terrified I
may end up with a hunch on my back or
worse paralyzed from a fall of some sort.
I have osteoporisis of the lumbar spine
and my hips. Can anyone help or has
anyone had experience with this. Im
scared the 1200mg of calcium wont work.
Just anything positive would help right
now
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breeanna
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Oct 2005 Posts: 79
Posted: 02-23-06 04:54am
Sorry to hear about the calcium. I cant
really empathise with the calcium...
Although I do have low iron.. God I get
so tired! So I have to take iron tablets.
So I guess thats similar. Cause my iron
stores are close to depleated from my
bulimia. I have never had anorexia..
Although I did get pretty bad.. Thinner
than what I am now (although id love to be
it again.. But htats a different story!),
but I guess you would know that with the
anorexia came a multiple of different
ongoing problems... One being brittle
bones. Were you informed about these
ongoing problems? Could that be why you
are so upset?
I know it can be hard. Damn hard. But
positive thinking and support means
everything when your going through the
rough time. Remind yourself that you are
on the calcium.. Which means it will get
better. You are mentally okay.. Is that
right? And to be honest I think that is
actually more important in the long run.
You can fight this. It hasnt got to a
point of no return - they have prescribed
the meds for you to become healthy. I am
15.. Almost 16 yay. I have been
suffering from bulimia for a year now. Im
from australia. Where are you from? What
was this thing that caused your eating
disorder? If you dont want to asnwer,
thats okay.
You can fight this because you are strong.
Xx
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kitkat511
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Feb 2006 Posts: 7 Location: NJ
Posted: 02-26-06 15:42pm
Well I have emetophobia. Which is a fear
of vomiting. Im from new jersey by the
way. As for being mentally ok...Well its
as good as its going to get right now
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breeanna
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Oct 2005 Posts: 79
Posted: 02-27-06 03:47am
Fear of vomiting. I dont suggest being
around me lol. Hope things get better.
Xx
