Hey...Its been a while since I posted anything... I've been having lots of problems lately. I've been very depressed for the last 2 months, even on christmas, my girlfriend of 7 months broke up with me, for one of my best friends, and I just cant stand life anymore. I recently had my grandpa die, and it killed me...He was the only person i've ever been able to trust and now I have nobody. I keep imagining he's still alive and get depressed whenever I realize he is gone and i'l never see him again. I keep having dreams about him and it kills me to think about it during the day. I keep imagining that I hear his voice, and if its dark outside, and I look into the window, at first glance I can swear I see his face. It freaks me out every time. As soon as I get a good feeling, which isn't often, its gone just as fast as it came. I still have the same hallucination/delusion symptoms as I talked about in my last, except they're worse and more often now. What is happening to me? Is it sz? Sz and other things? Just other things? Nothign? Am I just crazy? What is it?