Hey...Its been a while since I posted
anything... I've been having lots of
problems lately. I've been very
depressed for the last 2 months, even on
christmas, my girlfriend of 7 months broke
up with me, for one of my best friends,
and I just cant stand life anymore. I
recently had my grandpa die, and it killed
me...He was the only person i've ever been
able to trust and now I have nobody. I
keep imagining he's still alive and get
depressed whenever I realize he is gone
and i'l never see him again. I keep
having dreams about him and it kills me to
think about it during the day. I keep
imagining that I hear his voice, and if
its dark outside, and I look into the
window, at first glance I can swear I see
his face. It freaks me out every time.
As soon as I get a good feeling, which
isn't often, its gone just as fast as it
came. I still have the same
hallucination/delusion symptoms as I
talked about in my last, except they're
worse and more often now. What is
happening to me? Is it sz? Sz and other
things? Just other things? Nothign? Am
I just crazy? What is it?
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curious_girl82
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Feb 2006 Posts: 89 Location: new mexico
Posted: 02-14-06 22:47pm
May I ask what kind of hillucinations you
have? Sounds strange, but what
if>>>because u and your grandpa
had such a bond, he is contacting you in
some way? With your dreams n such?
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curious_girl82
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Feb 2006 Posts: 89 Location: new mexico
Posted: 02-14-06 22:49pm
curious_girl82
wrote:
may I ask what kind of
hillucinations you have? Sounds strange,
but what if>>>because u and your
grandpa had such a bond, he is contacting
you in some way? With your dreams n
such?
i just realized that is
probably not the best thing to say in a
schizophrenia room...But I do have a very
different belief system...
