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Q: I Know Its Bad But I Can't Stop

asked by: chilipekine on February 13th, 2006

New User

I've been trowing up for about 2 and a half years now and I know how bad it is for me. I never in my wildest dreams thought it would be so hard to give up. Its like I don't know how life is with out it. The good new I guess is that I haven't cut myself in like 3 monthes. I just wish sometimes that I could be normal and just never started too. I feel out of place and lonely. Its consumed my life. Thats all I think about. How to get around my parents watchful eye and what lies I can tell to get out of the situations. How you pretend you are ok when you really aren't and to just hide all your problems behind a smile and then when you are all alone you start to cry. I hate all of it and I wish I could wish I never had stared and now not even think about what I ate and how much or how I will get rid of it later.
I'm going to college this year and I want to start a new chapter in my life but I don't even think I can do it in like 6 or 7 months. I just hate my life and I don't even know why...... :(

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7lily

replied on February 14th, 2006

New User

Hey

There are a lot of people here that feel the same way that you do. Including me. Good news: you are not alone.....But you need more help than this to stop. I tried to do it on my own, because I was fearful for my life. I can't go to some inpatient treatment, because I have to work to support my family. Now I am changing jobs, and won't have insurance for a while....And I have found it very hard to stop on my own.
Get help now. The sooner the better. I started by telling my doctor, and my boyfriend. Now I at least know that they are monitoring me. I hide it well, but have to really watch myself more...It makes it at least more difficult. I am glad that I did it.
Not to say that there aren't people who have overcome this on their own...It just takes more time, and is far more difficult.
.....Baby steps, I guess.....Baby steps.
Good luck.

breeanna

replied on February 15th, 2006

Experienced User

I agree with everything lili said. Something I picked up on though. You need to forgive yourself for starting before you can stop. You seem to be carrying a lot of guilt and that would be hindering you. I too have felt that it is taking over my life. And its a terrible feeling. What do you think you could try to help you not b/p? What steps could you take? Try focusing your energy into solving these questions, instead of putting all of it into feeling so bad. What do you think?

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