I like reading about other people -- sort
of a reality check that i'm not in
neverendingsagaland.
Everyone in my family has been married and
divorced twice (minimum). I was engaged
before I went to college; he told me I had
to drop out cos a wife couldn't be smarter
than her husband (so I ditched him). I
always wanted to experience being married.
I tied the know at 42, and I was so
happy. Then --
he's totally changed. Lazy, whiney and
all he wants to do is eat, smoke, sleep
and beg for people to give money. I'm the
complete opposite and always have been. I
dont love him anymore; some days, I dont
like him period. I've told him my
feelings changed since 2003 when I was out
working while he played on the computer in
the house. Doesn't want to clean ("i'm
not a good househusband"). His idea of
working it out is if we clean together.
I always swore i'd never work inside and
outside of my house and live with someone
else. My mom and mil did that; not me.
I'm just biding my time until I save up
enough money to get my own car. I tried
being nice. He doesn't listen to a word;
just cos he wants the "marriage" to work
out, i'm supposed to meet him halfway.
Ha. I've done my part, and i'm through.
After I drop this load, i'll never marry
again. I'll keep my own place, enjoy
company and just enjoy being single
again.
