I like reading about other people -- sort of a reality check that i'm not in neverendingsagaland.

Everyone in my family has been married and divorced twice (minimum). I was engaged before I went to college; he told me I had to drop out cos a wife couldn't be smarter than her husband (so I ditched him). I always wanted to experience being married. I tied the know at 42, and I was so happy. Then --

he's totally changed. Lazy, whiney and all he wants to do is eat, smoke, sleep and beg for people to give money. I'm the complete opposite and always have been. I dont love him anymore; some days, I dont like him period. I've told him my feelings changed since 2003 when I was out working while he played on the computer in the house. Doesn't want to clean ("i'm not a good househusband"). His idea of working it out is if we clean together.

I always swore i'd never work inside and outside of my house and live with someone else. My mom and mil did that; not me. I'm just biding my time until I save up enough money to get my own car. I tried being nice. He doesn't listen to a word; just cos he wants the "marriage" to work out, i'm supposed to meet him halfway. Ha. I've done my part, and i'm through.

After I drop this load, i'll never marry again. I'll keep my own place, enjoy company and just enjoy being single again.

Its nice to let it hang out. 8)