Hi, i'm new here. Just need to vent out some frustrations I have with this girl I met during my vacation. I took a vacation for a month and went home to see my family. I've been talking to this girl online for months who I met through a friend. We went out on dates and on those dates, well we'd kiss intimately and act as though there's really something going on.

When I asked her if those kiss meant something, things changed. She didn't quite answer me directly. She asked me if there's a big difference between just being curious and being attracted to someone physically. I told her there is, and as soon as you feed your curiosity, it'll end and there will be nothing more.

Then before I left the country, I asked her out just to clear things up between us. Again, I asked her to give me a straight answer as to what's the deal between us (since I won't be seeing her for a long time). I never got a straight answer from her. I asked her if it meant nothing and that all those times that we kissed, it was just me who meant it. She still couldn't give me a straight answer.

Well I left the country with a heavy heart thinking that all those times, I was the only one hoping that there could be something good that'll come out of our dates.

The last time we talked, she was the one who initiated the conversation. I told her I hated her for not giving me any straight answer. For somehow saying that it was nothing while her action shows that there's a possibility. What hit me the most was when she admitted that "she liked me enough to kiss me." that's when I said goodbye and I stopped talking to her.

She told me she feels bad for hurting me and that she hopes that we can still be friends. O_o ???

I don't know if we can still be friends after this. Was I wrong to fall for her? I still can't seem to forget about her. *sigh* I guess I was just a fool for falling for someone like her.