Sometime by thiking bout it too much I get a attack...Just like recently with ativan...I fight it off so much that I dont wannnatake it that I end up panicking and taking it..
It weird tho I get different kinds of panic attacks.A real good panic attack is obviously the heart pumping fast and choking sensation and passing out sensation,but sometimes I just feel very anxious im not panicky but just cant stay in one place feel ligh headed and my mind going in 2000000 differetn direction..I think thats generalised axiety.
Do you ever get the feeling like youll be stuck with this forever even tho we read that with a good therappy it can be cured ( and ive read cured not just tolerated)
some days I feel like yea ill beat it sometimes I just feel like I wont.Its been harder to hang out with freinds or even go to work and shcool is tuff.
I usualy feel good with my gf around for some reason.
I went to the drs today to get some info about ativan and alternatives I could use but theres something about the drs or even the dentist last time but secaly the dr that gets my panic going.I mean I dont gte it yea sure if I was going in to get blood results or inquire about my heart or something but im going and I know what for and it will help yet I stepp foot on there abd my heart beats faster,dr comes out annouces someone my hearts beats a little faster now I know im next my heart is beating outta conrtol till I have to leave.And then sometimes its even worse cuz yure like ive panicked too much today,my heart been beating fast for 30 or 40 minutes im gonna die if it dosent stop soon or ive probably done damage to it.I hate these what ifs but how do we get them out of are heads?
Wow pretty big paragraph it just started out replying and looks like I took some stuff off of my chest...Im just tired of living with this,comstant fear even when im not having an attack im fearing it...Any secrets to stop fearing or im I just too far along and I need medication? If medication is a band aid then there has to be alternatives.