Hey deex,

you need to remember that you are not alone in all of this. You see all of us in these forums experiencing the exact same thoughts and feelings that you are experiencing. You can overcome these thoughts and feelings by first of all confiding in someone you trust, and your counsellor is a great start. You need to tell him or her everything you are thinking about if you want your counsellor to help you, and they can. Another place to start having some exercise in your life, try going for a nice walk at least 3 times a week, and incorporate any kind of daily physical activity. It will be hard at first, but when you see how much that helps you, you will enjoy doing it. Everytime I feel in the dumps or my anxiety gets the better of me I open a self help book that talks about my anxiety. A book that I use is called "an end to panic" -elke zuercher-white, ph.D. When I see all the symtoms and thoughts that I have on paper I get a reality check that I am ok, or I will be ok, and that I can overcome these obsticals. Once you get control of your anxiety you won't let or feel that anyone is walking over you, or that you are weak, because we are all stronger than this mental illness and we all have it inside us to rise above it. Also if you are a person of faith, it never hurts to pray. You can do this! Remember you are not alone, and everyday is a new day. :)