Anyone Lost a Parent/loved On to Suicide? Posted: 02-06-06 16:05pm
I was just wondering if anyone has ever
lost anyone they were close to-to suicide?
I lost my dad a few months ago to
suicide, and he was my best friend and the
only person that I told everything to and
the only one who made my life great. He
always had the right things to say and
always made me happy. I just wanted to
post this question because its not a topic
on the website, if you look up suicide on
here.....It comes up with abortion stuff.
I just wanted to know I guess how you all
are doing because I know its the hardest
thing in the world. Also, grieving is
not all that easy too. I am only 20 some
years old and I have had to deal with
tough issues but nothing like this. It
is sometimes hard too because I was the
one who came home from college the day he
did it and I was the one who found him.
I'm okay right now but I was definitly
depressed weeks after it. And one more
thing--my mom is already dating people and
going on weekend trips with different
men--call me "old fashioned" or
traditional but I think that is just wrong
(b/c its just too soon)and I really don't
talk to her as much but I never really was
close with her to begin with since I
always told my dad everything.
Anyways, ill stop rambling but I was just
curious about how you all are doing and
how you grieve because I never really talk
about it with anyone.
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Posted: 04-17-08 12:37pm
I lost my grandfather a year ago to
suicide. We were very close when I was
little, but then we had a falling out of a
couple years, and then he got real sick
and was dying and didn't want to be a
burden for my grandmother so he shot
himself in the head. We never did patch up
our relationship. I experience many
different emotions...some I feel a little
guily about, but hey I can't change my
emotions.
I feel sad that he died and I mourn for
the relationship we once had.
I feel angry over what he said and did
that caused our falling out. I kept
waiting for him to apologize, and now just
because he died am I just supposed to
forget all the hurt he caused me?
I feel angry and hurt that he killed
himself without apologizing or at least
saying goodbye to me, or letting me
resolve my hurt feelings with him.
I feel guilty for all my anger towards
him...
