Sweetheart...Its ok..Honestly...You are going to be ok...And im going to tell you why...
I suffered from anxiety/panic...Really really bad...It consumed my whole life..Every morning I woke up I knew I was going to panic.
I can give you situations and circumstances that led to them and the outcome of each if you ever want some feedback...I have plenty.
I will tell you...You are going to be ok. First of all stop doing the 'what if's'. I already know thats what you doing...This can spiral out of control. Everytime you've had a panic attack...Were you fine???? Yes.
I was getting serious headaches that I never had before...Pricks and nerve feelings just wierd. Its all stress related. And I emphasize that..You stand up and your head feels like its going to pop..Ok listen...Your obviously stressing yourself out and stress can swell your sinus...Can cause indigestion...Tons of stuff...So your stressing yourself out.
Let me tell you what worked for me...Start putting time aside to exercize ...I promise you this..Just walk for 20-30 min a day...Just do it. Promise me you will..Honesty...It sucks at first but once you do it...Its an addiction....It releases 'good feeling' hormones that your body is not getting!
You are not alone..Im embarressed to say but ive had attacks so bad I drove myself to the emergency room in the middle of the night cause I thought something was wrong with my heart and my legs felt prickerly. Have someone you can talk to...To ease you out of this when you do get them.
Trust me my mom use to get calls at 2 in the morning!!! I love her!
Smile and enjoy life...We are only here for sooo long...And the lord jesus is your answer for everything ...Honestly...I started this prayer journal at my height of my anxiety...3 years and going strong..Ugh...So I started this prayer journal...Where I focused my time praying for other people...Maybe somebody I seen at the store that looked sad or someone w/a sick baby...And I would put them down in their. I did this cause I was feeling bad about always worrying about me me and me...
I asked the lord to bless my writings and to comfort and heal me from my anxiety and panic attacks...Prayer is free...And its a gift that we all can share in together...
This prayer journal turned into 'lets just pray about me' w/in a couple months...But thats ok too...It comforted me...And thats what you need to find is comfort in your fear...And he is the only way to get you there.
Understand that it is ok to feel panicky and scared and feel completly wacked and emotionaly unstable..Its ok...You are completely normal...Trust me.
We have these feelings for a reason...Remember...God is the wonderment that created us..And his son jesus didnt go through that enormous pain and torture to be ridiculed and die on a cross for me and you...He did this out of love...And you will be ok...He "loves" you unconditionally...Remember people will let you down..But god doesnt...Ever...Trust in him
can I share something with you that helped me out enormously....
Its a passage out of the bible and jesus says "come to me all you who are weary and burdened...And I will give you rest" take my yolk upon you and learn from me for I am gentle and humble in heart..And you will find rest for your souls".
This is sooo true that is jesus asking you to do that..To come to him..He will heal you and release you from all anxiety..
You are going to be ok...You are strong...I just happend to stumble on this website cause I was looking up some literature and I logged in to email this to you.
You are not alone...Ok. Understand that. And you are only human it is ok and remember everything will be ok ...It always does...
I believe that people like you and I that have suffered or do suffer from this are strong people and we are so in touch with life and feelings that we go overboard sometimes...It honestly delights me to know that god helped me get through mine and overcome it...It was difficult but I have my life back...Because I gave it to him...Its not for me to worry over..Hes already picking up those pieces for tomorrow you dont even know about yet...
Remember: what does not kill you ...Makes you stronger thats in this band called sugarland...Its a country album...And its their new album...
And the last song on there I recommend you listen to... I will stand my ground...It a great empowerment song that lifts your spirit..
Also since I mentioned that I have to mention third day...The 'love song' thats the title
please listen to both...
I will check back here to check on you tooo to see if things are going ok for you.
Take care