Depressed? Emptyness? What? Please Help

I'm pretty much in the same category as eagle. I've always felt down in the dumps, I can't seem to have a friendship which I don't ruin (usually by doing something mean to my friend), and I play computer games all day. I don't do my homework, and its hurting my gpa. I was on prozac for a while, and it didn't work ( I gave it about 3 months). I was on paxil at one point too, and it just made me more depressed. Right now i'm on wellbutrin, and it's making me very tired (haven't been on it long enough for it to kick in). A year ago I was doing self destructive behavior, running around at night, drinking, causing trouble. I eventually stopped the crazy antics, but only because I found a haven in computer games. In the summer, I played around 75 hours a week. I didn't go out to see a single friend ( I haven't really hung out with anyone since last school year). My friends were other people who played games with me, who lived miles away. Now, recently I vowed to stop playing the games as much, and focus on school. But, I find that I can't even open up wordpad to start writing an essay. I'm not attentive in class, and I just feel like going home and sleeping while i'm at school. Please, someone help me.

Thank you for reading this. I would deeply appreciate any help ( I don't know where to go from here). Thanks.

Hi,

depression can be quite scary and in some cases medication is a good solution, but I find the ease with which doctors write prescriptions rather disturbing. Depression is a very common mental health issue, and one that can be worked through. Sometimes it's best to figure things out for yourself. I personally used a program at selftherapy.Org which I thought was terrific - it literally ended my anxiety and panic attacks within days. Perhaps your solution lies elsewhere.But I urge you to not be too quick to pop pills that will numb your desire to find a real solution. I wish you the best!

-- binod shankar