Ok so i'm 16, and i've always been uncomfortable with my body image, and have been on/off dieting and excersising semi-regularly for years. I've never lost any significant weight except during my freshman yr, when I went almost semi-annorexic excercised like crazy, hardly ate anything, and lost about 10 lb. However, then summer came along, and I gained it all back+some, and I haven't been able to keep anything like that up since then.I never really did anything unhealthy, but throwing up my food was always in the back of my mind. Then, recently, partly because I think i'm a little depressed, I did it. Not binging and purging, but just sticking my finger down my throat and throwing up w/ e I had eaten. That week I got really obsessive, and hardly ate anything, and threw up what I did. It's not easy for me to make myself throw up either, I don;t have a weak stomach. I really have to make myself retch for a long time. It kinda hurts my throat too. So after about a week, I started to really freak myself out, and was like i'm stopping this, w/e i'm not fat, I can eat w/e I want. So I basically went it the oppisate direction for about a week. The tonight, I got in a huge fight with my parents, started feeling really bad, (and fat, that was on my mind before anyways), and I threw up again. Unfortunatly, it felt pretty good. I'm not so sure I have so much control anymore, and am really worried i'm becoming belimic, which is a problem I really don't need, but I don't want to feel fat anymore either! Please help!!
Heyy hun I kinda know how u feel..Like u took ur anger out on food..And then u had to puke and u liek the idea of how it made u feel good!!...And that is a reason why so many people do this b.C it realeses endorphins...And that makes u feel good..It is lke exercising the same things..But since u have a pst with food..And diets I think it is always going to be with u...Even if u stop for a while it alwyas finds a way to come back to u..And thats sad..But it is the truth ..I would just try my hardest not to think aout it and just eat healthy..U dont want o get ur self into this it is horrible!!!..Hope I helped u??...Ttl..Bye..Kels
Just don't go any further with this. Love yourself. I have sooo many health problems now because of this. I am in tons of physical pain (not to mention the emotional). It may make you feel better now, but you will be paying for it later.
You are not too far into it...Please just stop now. My little sister is your age. It would kill me to think that she were getting started with this. Please know that you are smarter than that....At least I hope that you are.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Please stop hurting youre beautiful body while you still can. Go to your school counselor or a close friend, or your preacher, or his wife. The bottom is a horrible place to be. The thing about an eating disorder is that you can never lose enough weight to be happy. The longer you weight to start fighting it, the harder it will be to beat it. Please! I am begging you... Like I would have begged myself had I known, stop if there is any way on earth.