Im Gonna End It All

I am new to this site but, when I read your posting I just knew I had to send you a reply.

What struck me about your posting was how much you sounded like me!!!

I was in a similiar situation to yours for a year and a half up until 3 months ago.

I had a friend(or so I thought) who treated me exactly like your does, not very well and seemed to enjoy the pain he was inflicting on me emotionally.

I had had enough!!!!!!! I had to ask myself some really tough questions.
(keep in mind this person has been a part of my life for 11 yrs)

is this person really my friend???
Does this person really care about me if he treats me this way?
Do I really need all this negitive crap in my life?

I'm guessing you know the answers to these as well as I did. No!!!

I made a choice to cut this person out of my life and although it was hard and to this day still hard! I am a much happier person.

You say you have had enough and i'm happy to hear it sounds like your at the point I was.

Although I don't know you, I do know that you don't deserve this. Think about what i've said.

Good luck there are people who care. :wink:

Yup, my answer to all was no.

He says he cares about me, makes a whole big thing of wanting me to realise he cares, one night I was talking with him and crying cos he had hurt me so much, to which he started crying and saying he felt so bad for hurting me - I bloody apologised for making him cry, I couldnt believe it. He tells me way too much that he cares about me that its lost all meaning.

Also, im not really his friend am i...He only sees me when his gf is busy and wont know what hes up to, he doesnt even talk to me. Today he completely ignored me cos she wasnt at work, he will do the same tomorrow, he told me he can see me saturday (only because she works saturday). Im seriously sick of being used...I am being used arent i? Can someone please clarify this....I feel used, is he using me??

Im sick of his crap, of only being a 'friend' when she isnt around. Hes driven me to the end of my life...I used to think he was trying to make me kill myself, that he would enjoy that. I now know hes working to something....Im certain its my own suicide so I cant tell his gf what hes really up to.

O.K. I'm going to give it to you straight(no sugar coating) maybe he does care but he's not that into you if he treats you that way, or makes you feel like caca. Take it from a girl that knows.

I have gone through most of my life allowing men to treat me like caca and going back for more(i have to admit I have very low self esteem)
all I want is someone to love me and to be honest with me. I'm thinking that you want the same.

One thing i've learned that I would like to pass onto you is: a guy that is dishonest with you will always lie. "the best predictor of future behavior is past behavior!!

He has a gf right? Do you think he is honest with her when he goes to see you? I doubt it!!!

You can do better! No guy is ever worth ending your life. You just want the pain to go away I understand. When you decide you truly deserve more than what you are getting.................. It will I promise you.

In your honest opinion, and you can read my other posts to make an educated opinion, do you think he means it hen he says he wants us to be friends?? He tells me till hes blue in the face that he cares and wants us to be friends...Im doubting it.

Maybe he wants to be friends but, why would you want a friend who lies to you and treats you badly and seems to enjoy the pain he inflicts on you.

I have read your other posts and you seem to answer your own questions very well.

The ultimate decision is yours, no one can make it for you.


Good luck

I know how you feel I went tru the same thing. You should cut him out of your life... Hes bad for you. If you keep seeing this person your only ganna end up being hurt more... He might say he cares about you but its not true... I had actually the same thing I went on too damm long though! I cryed so damm much in this period of my life. Finally I got the truth out of the person and it turned out it were all lyes she never cared about me... Its hard the truth.. But thats the way it is. Accept it and move on and get this person out of your life no matter what he says. When someyone is bad for you your only cutting out the one that is good for you. Get him out of your life. You will meet someyone that is good for you. You will have learned a lot from this though.

I'm a little lost here. Is he just your friend? If he is just your friend, you seem to be awefully involved with him emotionally. Seems like something else is going on between you and he that is more than a friendship.
If he was just your friend, then cutting him lose because he is a jerk wouldn't be so hard, but it seems you have deeper feelings for him than that.

Do not let him use you for his good time girl when his g/f isn't available!!!

That is exactly what he is doing. I have a b/f, but I have guy friends too. I feel totally different for my b/f than my guy friends. I am guessing he categorized the two of you differently also.

If's it's too hard, move on and cut him lose. Make new friends. The world is your oyster!!!

Also, don't let him keep you on the hook as a back up in case his current g/f doesn't work out. Let him make a fool out of someone else!

Good luck,
lootie!

Get the he!! Outta there!!!!! : ) make yourself happy and forget his a$$!