This Is Takin Over My Life!!!! Posted: 01-25-06 13:23pm
I have had anxiety since I was 15 (im
almost 19 now). The anxiety turned into
depression and I got so bad I started
cutting myself. The cutting is mostly
under control, but lately I have been
getting panic attacks agian and there
horrible. I have become so scared to even
leave my house. When I am at my bf's
house and I get a panic attack I make him
take me home right away. One time I asked
him to take me home when I was having a
panic attack and he wasnt moving fast
enough and I started freekin out and
yelling at him. Uh it's so embrassing
when I get them. I just start feeling so
sick and I just cant control my body I
hate it! It's getting so bad that I cant
make any decisions anymore and it's taking
over my life. I never eat right I never
go to the bathroom right (gross sorry) and
I have became so stressed about all this
that im starting to loose some of my hair.
This is ruining my body. Im only 18 im
scared that by the time im 30 im gonna
look 50 from all the stress. I am seeing
a counsler and I am going to start takin
meds agian ( I was on them b4). I was
just wondering if anyone else has or is
going through this and what they do about
it. Any help would be great. Thanks
(sorry this is kinda long)
jess
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pinksalter
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Sep 2005 Posts: 124
Posted: 01-26-06 22:08pm
Hi
i know exactly what your feeling, i`ve had
it all. My hair was falling out and
thinning quite a bit, was having all the
horrible feelings you get with panic
attacks. The thing is with panic attacks
that your normal logical thinking is
bypassed so you just can`t think straight
or make any rational decisions.
I had my first panic attack with my ex
boyfriend, and ever since that point when
I was with him I just didn`t feel safe it
was like he was the trigger or so I
thought in my mind.
Half the problem is worrying about the
future us anxiety prone people hate the
thought of the unknown. Don`t worry about
the future it will take care of its self.
Start to look after yourself from now. I
haven`t had any counselling yet and my
doctors have not helped me one bit with my
anxiety I have learnt everything on my
own.
I take 20mg citalopram daily and I have
tried to work through my anxiety myself.
The things that have helped me are any
books by claire weekes, relaxation tapes,
yoga, self help programmes and most of all
keeping my mind occupied at all times.
If you would like to talk more please
contact me anytime.
