I've been cutting for 2 1/2 years.I feel do...Dead on the inside now.Nothing really seems to make me happy anymore.When I was alot younger I was smiley and stuff now I just don't really smile and stay quiet.
I mean the pain just hurts so much alot of days like at school and stuff I feel like if I say one word even I will break down and cry.I know what people say about me and how people look at me but I really don't care that much anymore.The pain from it still stings some times but not very much.90% of the time I cry myself to sleep or wish I would have died in my sleep when I wake up in the morning.I just hurt and so I numb out everything.I just try to stay numb inside and out at school and when i'm in public and stuff or atleast until I get home or in the girls bathroom so I can go into a stall and cut myself for relief.I have a really hard time trusting people thanks to alot of people in my life...And I just si to get rid of it all.I just am so mad and upset alot of the time at people around me, at god,at myself at everything.I just sometimes feel like I can't breath and that my world is crashing down around me.I feel like I can't take it anymore but I dunno what to do...What to do with the problem and myself.

-danielle