|i have been seeing this guy for about a year.
A few months ago, I found out he was calling dating hotlines and signed up for dating sites... Such as passion.Com which seemed more like sexual hookups than real relationships. He apologized and says he doesn't do that anymore.
Last month, when he came over to stay the night, I went out to rent us a movie. Later on when he left, I realized he was looking at porn on my laptop. He denied it at first and said things like "i swear to god I didn't." later on, he apologized.
Yesterday, when he came over again, I had to leave for work. I come back and realized he was searching for porn to download on my laptop again. He said he got bored waiting for me. He said he cancelled the downloads before they finished. They were deleted so I dont know whether or not he viewed them already.
He admits he's a porn addict. He says what he does has nothing to do with how he feels about me. The first time I caught him, I told him I was hurt. Now i'm mad he did it a second time. He apologizes, but I dont know what to do anymore. Seems like he has no respect for me.
We only have sex about once a week. And when we do, it lasts for maybe 5 minutes, even less. He doesn't go down on me.
He suggests we rent a porn and watch it together and do everything they do, but after catching him with porn twice, and calling datelines... I've lost interest in sex with him. It makes me feel unwanted.
He has this collection of pictures of one of his female friends who I had suspected he was trying to hook up with. He even has a picture of her ass. What makes me sad is that he has no pictures of me at all. His myspace profile says single. He doesn't like to hold my hand in public because he isn't that kind of guy. All those things would normally lead me to believe i'm just a sex buddy, but the fact that he brings me around to his house to his family and friends, even during holidays, I feel as though he really is interested in me as in a relationship.
I caught him trying to download porn yesterday and now I am mad, on the verge of wanting to tell him I dont want to see him anymore.
But i'm afraid i'm making a mistake. Just because he enjoys porn and sex, that doesn't mean he doesn't love me and want to be with me?
Right now, we are no
t talking. He told me to call him when I wanted to talk to him.