So much anger. You sound like me last year. You should do lots of excercise to let it all out. You are so right about the world and stuff. It does suck. But it we all worry about it all the time noone will be happy. I dislike a lot of thinks about the world but I know that right here where I live there is me, my friends and my life. And there is nothing I can do to change the rest of the world. I one tried to change a racist. After I realised there was nothing I could do to change people I should just leave it be. I know i;m probably not making sense or helping but how I see things is that if I can't help I don't think about it. Whats more important, things that have happened in the past or what you are going right now. You are important and loved and if you loved youself aswel and forgot the crap and remembered the nice things like a pretty field or someone smiling at you in the street or a child playin you will see the world how it should be seen. I hope I have helped.

What you are questioning is the meaning of life. The question to which there is no answer; only theories. What youve got to do is to make your own theory. Mine is that life is the meaning of life. To reproduce is the only way life can go on. To help them grow up and show them the wonders and make sure they become a good person. Then they can reproduce and one day someone will find the answer to why were alive. The dinosaurs died out we may do also but the dinosaurs meaning of life is to be a part of history something people in the future can enjoy digging up studying etc. We will be a part of history and if we become a good person we will be remembered maybe not personally but as a whole. Take world war 1 so many died but we remember those people who fought for their country and they will be remembered. Death like you said will happen so why keep looking towards it look at what your doing today and take it day by day. One day you will die and you will be remembered by your children and maybe grandchildren. You say you dont know who youre great grandparents and theyre forgotten but not by your grandparents they remember. Everyone is remembered never forgotten. Just because there maybe only one person who does they wont be forgotten. Youve just got to wake up in the morning look outside and think about the things that are going to happen that day and fulfill your ambitions. Its all mental and minor mentality can be taken away with physical actions. Go see things, do things you want to do, live your life to the max because one day you will die but if you have children and let the tree grow you will never be forgotten. Hope this helps. Take care and stay out of trouble. Prison or a coffin wont let you live your dreams or fantasies.