Hi everyone who reads this stuff..
I know pretty much for a fact that im depressed, im always hiding in my room. I enjoy bieng alone and writing music and words. I like to go out with friends and my girl but mostly just alone.
What I wonder is, when I think everybody is against me sometimes...Like my friends dont like me, or people in general dont like me because im different. What is that? Im always reading into peoples expressions and subtle things like sarcasm. These are fairly constant.. I think that when people give me a compliment that they mean the opposite. I dont trust people and I just think everyones against me..I dont think people tell me the truth.
Im usualy always honest because I just dont need to bother lying, and I always think that everybody thinks im lying, because im so honest and they dont believe somebody would be honest like that. .When im with my girlfriend I feel so relaxed like im just fine. I trust her to tell me the truth and be honest. I almost cant be around dishonest people because I will have a break down. I think some friends talk behind my back to everyone trying to get everyone to hate me. Like people collect against me. And team up.
I woprry about food ..A two day old sandwich ,i have to ask if its okay like 5 times before ill eat it because im just scared of getting sick. Two days is usualy the magic number.
Thank you for reading all of that if you did. Are these symptoms of anything? Like anxiety or something? Im not sure but I might have add or somehting too. My mom never took me to any doctors because she didnt want to look like a bad mother I guess. But iv never been diagnosed with anything like an illness. Maybe someone would suggest me to go see somebody, but maybe im just stressing? Thanks again