:!: please, listen carefully; :!: its the internet I know, but people in the world do care. I had a freind that had a similar problem, she is a lesbian with bipolar, schitszophrania, a.D.D., depression, multipal personality disorder and a few other things I cant remember off hand without asking. It could be one of these things, keep in mind that going to a sphyciatric doctor can help to identify this better and there is no shame in this, it ok and normal for people to do so if they need to and is just the same as seeing a medical doctor for the flue. Theres hope and you can do it. I am sure you arent a lesbian, I am sure tho just like that person you are a good person and I hope you dont take offence to that, I mean no offence. If any thing there is a small list of verry reasonable possabilitys above, best wishes and good luck.

I wish I could help you out because I am feeling very much the same.
I am so scared of what is going on. The best thing is to see a doctor. How long have you been feeling this way?

Hi there! I agree, you you either need to see your dr or a dr of psychiatry, their are people around you that care about you, whether you believe so or not, you do not want to hurt them by hurting yourself. Even though my situation is different and I too have too have thought about ending it because I live in pain 24/7 I know that I would be hurting others that would be hurting others that really really care about me and that would be selfish of me, do I must go on and hope that today and tomorrow will be better.
Good luck to you!
Keep us posted.

Please see your doctor...I too have episodes like that..Some are so strong but i'm still here!! I have to tell you..That I have great days too! One time it was so bad that I had to go downstairs and rip up my canvasses I had painted..The 2 big ones which really bum me out...Not because they were great paintings....But that I can't afford to go out and buy new ones..I bought those used and just gesso'd over them. Now I have to wait until I can afford to buy used ones again and wait until I get a car to go looking for them since I don't have one and my husband works crazy hours....Blah blah...But I would have rather done that then do that to myself...Those are replaceable but I am not and I am unique as that one snowflake..Fingerprint....Leaf...Dna and proud of it...And this is not a good day for me so you see...It's possible....Go to your doctor...