From reading your post, I gathered you a very strong willed person. You have put up with a man who has a child, who obviously is not making her mind/follow the rules as well. It sounds to me like you are in a :negative: relationship that is going no where, first, you are having to deal with pain, I didn't get many details, so I 'm not sure whats up with you. Does this child live in the home with you or just have custody days? By evne suggesting you put out your pills would be saying 'i give up....Thats total caca. You need to get away from the situation before it escalates into something worse. If this man loves you, he would be willing to make his child understand and obey the rules of the house, anything to make it easier on you. If not, don't let hte dorr hit you on the way out, because there are way too many others out here who would appreciate a strong willed and determined woman. Taking your own life is one of gods worst sins....He has allowed me to defy death twice.....And yes there are wonderful treatments for depression that can help you cope with life. I was a step mother years ago and have been clinically depressed for eons! You cna always send me an email if youd like! I have all the faith in hte world in you!

I get the impression that you are alone or not receiving enough help.

What kind of help are you receiving ?

Who is nearby that you can rely on to shoulder this burden with you ?

Can you turn to anyone ?

Basically, you need to share your problem. Relieve the load by finding
others (professional others, family, friends, etc) you can provide you
with either immediate or long-term help.

Another front you can work on is to seek counseling for yourself.
Perhaps you could benefit from having someone to speak to,
especially if this person may possesse information about support
networks that would meet your specific family needs.

Thank you both for the advice. As for family I am not close enough to talk with any of them. Most of my friends are yooung like myself 26. They are more concerned with there own life. Yes I know they really are not good friends then. Maybe the right answer is profesional help.I am feeling a little better. I made it clear to my fiance that while he is working ii can not watch his daughter anymore on top of all my medical conditions it is just to much right now.

I think you need to tell your man you can't deal with this anymore. That you don't want to spend your whole life dealing with her throwing a fit like a 3 year old.Tell him you are depressed and that your stress level is sky high and that if he wants to keep you things are going to have to change.

-danielle