Thanks deb
yes I found the more I talk about it the more I feel better
at 1st I was keeping quite letting others think I was ok dealing with it then I started talking
well more ppl talked saying oh yes I was like that yrs back oh yes so & so
yes makes me feel a lot better knowing the things I feel are in my head not me being sick or thinking something worse would come out of it the sec doc said this is now a normal node it didn't;t go down all the way
but feels like nothing serious ( but I feel the lump creepy) so I am letting go of it but takes time
muscle tension still there but I try to think positive about it too
hope your doing ok?
I am a mom of 2 boys just 7 & 9 they need me strong & healthy for a long time yet for them I have to make myself well
any time you want to talk I am here thanks again
polly