I just don't feel like I can deal with my
life anymore. I was with my boyfriend for
four flawless years. A perfect
relationship. We barely ever fought and
if we did it was silly stuff. So a month
ago he broke up with me and he said it was
nothing I did, that he just fell outta
love with me, that his love just faded.
Well just 2 weeks after he dumped me he
started kinda seeing this girl he barely
knows that he met out at the bar and
they've been makin out and junk but are
yet to be boyfriend/girlfriend. Just 2
weeks after breaking off a four year
relationship. He says he never planned
it, that he can't help his feelings. Just
the thought of him kissing someone else
makes me physically ill. And the hardest
part is he's been my best friend for 8
years and I feel so alone now cuz I havent
seen him really since we broke up..Only a
cuople times. It's just all too much for
me to handle and all way too soon. I
seriously thought this was the boy I was
gonna marry. He was the only person who
truly ever loved me, accepted me, made me
happy, told me I was beautiful. I love
him soooo much. I've just felt so lost
and alone and empty since he left and feel
like I have nothing to live for. He says
if I kill myself he'll never get over it
that he needs me in his life but I dunno.
I just don't wanna hurt anymore, not be
good enough anymore, be a failure anymore.
So i'm really just thinking of taking a
bunch of sleeping pills and going to
sleep. Forever.
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czarg
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Jan 2006 Posts: 68 Location: Lagos-Nigeria
B4 U Die ... Posted: 01-13-06 21:09pm
Honey, b4 u die allow me say one thing 'do
you realise the following:'
1. I will be lonely for life, missing
you?
2. It happens to pple. Lovers, couples
and soulmates have split before we were
born, they are splitting and will continue
to split till the earthw inds up.
3. There is a lot of life to live that
you cannot afford to hang your on another
flesh and blood.
4. Committing suicide is the ultimate sin
against god, he owns your life. It is not
yours. Do you realise he has prepared
someone more special for you? Open your
eyes!
5. When one door closes, we should not
close our eyes not to see a new door
open.
6. Decide to move on. Yr self esteem
counts here. Your family reputation also
matters. You are an asset for you, your
siblings, yr parents and for me too.
7. Should you want to keep yr mind busy
with a gist, mail me
(ssobafemi@yahoo.Ca).
8r,
sam
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debbienelson
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jan 2006 Posts: 4 Location: Phoenix
Hang On! Posted: 01-13-06 21:59pm
Please don't hurt yourself! I have been
in your shoes many times in my life as far
as depression, sometimes over failed
relationships, sometimes other stressors
in life.
It does get better, I promise. The hurt
will fade but you must hang on until then.
Talk to someone. A friend, parent,
suicide hotline, anyone. If you need to
talk, I am here.
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wind rider
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Jan 2006 Posts: 8 Location: Australia
Advice From An Understanding Stranger Posted: 01-14-06 02:05am
Dear lesigh.
You may find this hard to believe or
understand, but things will get better for
you. I too have been in similar
circumstances in regards to thinking of
taking my own life. I know that at times
it can feel to difficult to continue on.
The pain and negative thoughts can become
unbearable, but you must believe me when I
say "what lies ahead is a fulfilling and
happy life".
Maybe not a year from now or even two or
three. But one day you will look back at
this and be so happy with where you are in
your life. You may even look back and
become quit distressed to think that you
almost ended it all.
Having said this, right now you need to
use you inner strength, don't dwell on
your negative thoughts, counter act them
with good thoughts. Think of your
achievements and what you wish to achieve.
Think of how happy you have been and know
that one day you will be happy again.
Take comfort in your friends, they care
about you. Try and enjoy the simple
things life has to offer, you can get
great pleasure from even the simplest of
things.
Our life doesnt always go to plan, but
this is no reason for ending it. If our
life went to plan and was meant to be only
good, it would probably be boring. We all
have our hard times to deal with, some
worse than others, but we also have
amazing and beautiful things to live
for.
In one of your postings you said you
wanted to "live a full life - and healthy
long life". I want this for you too.
