This is the first time i've ever written anything about my problems. I have been addicted to vicodin for about 6 years, the past 3 years increasingly worse. On days that I am plentifull in pills I will take 18-20 5/500's in a day. Well, this is only the tip of the iceburg - i've also taken ephedrine for over 10 years - a lot of ephedrine. On a day when I have no other drugs to take I will take around 50 ephedrine in a day. On a day that I have vicodin I will alternate the vikes & ephederine every four hours. It's really scary to see these numbers written down. I am a 31 yr old female - my doctors tell me i'm healthy but they have no idea what I am doing to my body. I've come to a point now that I have to stop but I don't know how. Anomosity is a big issue with me, I don't want family or friends to know any of this. My husband knows a little - but has no clue how bad it really is. I don't remember how to function sober. I can't imagine going through an entire day feeling the way I do when I wake up in the morning. The vikes are becoming too hard to get and too much money and too much of a hassle to get when I do have the money - so I can see that drug fasing out - but the ephedrine is at every gas station in my town for $5. I guess I would like to hear from others... Thanks