Stupid But Want to Repair Damage Posted: 01-11-06 15:53pm
I have been suffering from anxiety and ocd
for many months. Just before christmas I
stupidly got very drunk, and the
combination on anxiety and drunkeness led
me to cheat on my girlfriend - it was only
a pull/snog/whatever u want to call it,
and my touching her 'down there' but
stoping straight away after realising what
was goin on I did not finger her though.
Firstly, because of my anxiety, I though
the worst of everything - even thought
that I has gotten this girl pregnant as I
had masturbated before I went out that
evening. I have told my girlfriend about
this situation and that I had pulled this
girl, and she understands and knows it was
out of my character and that I have been
going through anxiety at the moment.
To help combat my anxiety, we have agreed
to go on a break to help focus my mind on
what I need to do rather than her.
However, I cant easily forgive msyelf for
what I have done and I am struggling with
guilt and unhapiness for ever hurting the
girl I love.
How do u see our relationship from here?
I am worried about not ever getting her
back properly as I have forever damaged
our relationship. I am also worried that
I will never be able to look at her
without thinking of what I did.
But can this be overcome - this regret,
this guilt and this unforgiveness by
myself and her for what happened? Is it
advisable to take a counselling session
with her?
Im very upset and afraid of what might
happen, so any advice is much appreciated.
