I have been suffering from anxiety and ocd for many months. Just before christmas I stupidly got very drunk, and the combination on anxiety and drunkeness led me to cheat on my girlfriend - it was only a pull/snog/whatever u want to call it, and my touching her 'down there' but stoping straight away after realising what was goin on I did not finger her though.
Firstly, because of my anxiety, I though the worst of everything - even thought that I has gotten this girl pregnant as I had masturbated before I went out that evening. I have told my girlfriend about this situation and that I had pulled this girl, and she understands and knows it was out of my character and that I have been going through anxiety at the moment.
To help combat my anxiety, we have agreed to go on a break to help focus my mind on what I need to do rather than her. However, I cant easily forgive msyelf for what I have done and I am struggling with guilt and unhapiness for ever hurting the girl I love.
How do u see our relationship from here? I am worried about not ever getting her back properly as I have forever damaged our relationship. I am also worried that I will never be able to look at her without thinking of what I did.
But can this be overcome - this regret, this guilt and this unforgiveness by myself and her for what happened? Is it advisable to take a counselling session with her?
Im very upset and afraid of what might happen, so any advice is much appreciated.
Yes I would take her on a counseling session with you... so that you can lay all your cards and feeling on the table in front of her... so that she knows that you love her very much, really regret what had happened and you need help to over come all your emotions and anxieties about this situation and may cost your relationship.