I Want to End My Five Year Relationship ...stresses Out Posted: 01-11-06 15:02pm
I have been in a relationship with my
first love for five years. This
relationship is starting to cause me a lot
of stress and anxiety. I'm confused I cry
all the time for no reason. Let me start
to say I have two children from a previous
marriage. I love my boyfriend but there
are somethings that I cannot deal with.
Last year we starting renting this home he
never have his half of anything. I feel
that if we both are working no matter who
make the most money both parties need to
hold there weight around the house as far
a financial or chores. I do everything I
have given so much i'm starting become
very withdrawn. He sit his lazy behind in
the basment playing video game from the
time he get home from work until the time
he lay his head down to sleep at night. I
pay all the bills, buy all the groveries
and pay most of the $965 dollars in rent
minus maybe $200. Its not fair, did I
mention I have two children that I no
longer get any child support for because
my ex- husband lost his job a year ago and
have not made a effort to find another
one. I tired of being tired. I'm ready
to throw in the towel. I will rather
struggle by myself with my kids then to
add someone grown to the equation that is
not paying their fair share. Lately I
have been crying just all the time not
being able to stop. I'm tired of being
sad all the time. I have been depressed
before but I told myself no one or nothing
will get me in that situation ever again.
Often when its timke for me to go to be I
just lay there wondering is my life ever
going to get any better? I often think
back all the b.S. He has put me through
trying to make it look like I was the bad
guy and all along it was him.
One he lost his job and did not find
another on for a whole two years. I feel
as if this is my time to be happy and I
can't wait around on someone whom is not
willing to change for the better. He
claims he loved me but if he did he will
get his lazy behind up and find a part
time job to help around the houshold a
little better. He also have a daugther
that come and visit everyweek end eating
everything in her path and I often get
angry because I know that my kids are
there everyday and i'm the only one buying
the groceries. I'm I being selfish? I
have given so much to people all of my
life I feel aas if it is time for someone
to give back besides myself for a
change.
I've had all this stuff bottled up inside
me for so long its nice to get the load
off my chest. If only I can get the
nerves to tell the person i'm living
with.
