The world is cruel, and that's a fact. I pretty much had the same problem like you too. My friends didn't even want to hear about my depression, family members were all too busy to notice, and my best friends deserted me the time I needed them most.. It was as though the world was out to get me..


Heymiss, although your friends and family do not show interest in helping you with your depression, don't get the idea that the world has turned their backs on you, because it hasn't. You'd be surprised by how many people who actually cares for you as they read your post. Which i'm wondering now too, it's weird isn't it..? You would think that your family and friends would be willing to help you out, instead of anonymous people on the internet whom you've never met before.


I'm sad to hear that you've attempted suicide before and you want to do it again. Please.. You're only 16! There's so much you haven't seen in the world! There's so much more to live for! Please don't kill youself..!

Hang in there. Depression is just a phase. It'll pass. Email me if you need someone to talk to. I'll be there for you.

Don't stress up, there's no such thing as "no hope". It's not like there were a maximum amount of hope for the whole population and that the stock is now empty. No.


I quite understand what you mean with the fact that in happy situations it can end up in a crappy way. Every single person has at least once been through this. It just depends on what you want to remember from those happy moments: the sunny day or the sad evening ?


It's true, neglecting people is not something to cheer about. But on the other hand you should put yourself in others' mind: talking about depression is not joyful. It's rare that others want to conversate about depression. Of course it's bad to keep that annoying thought to yourself, but don't make it take all your mind either. There are many other things to talk about that won't disturb both parts. Well, I hope so ;-)


my advice: do not kill yourself. If you don't feel like seeking for joy, hang on at least because there are many steps (sometimes with radical changes) you shouldn't miss. Examples: moving, going to college, that wonderful feeling of relief after a depressing period (!) ... Don't throw everything away, because there are many things left you can do, maybe just not now ;-)

i'm not sure if I am helping at all. I just hope you don't want to point a gun at me if my thoughts are not what you expected.. (that's my point: you don't have to buy everything i'm saying, it depends on what you want to remember from my post and what not ;-) )


try to have a good day.

Sk.

Heymiss, I have been in your shoes, and there is hope. I struggled with depression through my teens, and although I didn't take any medication for it, I wish I would have. I saw a phsychologist, but I didn't feel comfortable enough to open up completely with him.

When I was 20 (two years ago), my depression was the deepest it had ever been. I was crying constantly, for no apparent reason. There was nothing particular in my life I was depressed about; I was depressed about life in general. My exact thoughts were "what is the point of living, really????" and "if I cross the street and a bus hits and kills me, I don't give a crap. Put me out of my misery." I also had suicidal thoughts, but the only thing that stopped me from killing myself was thinking about my niece and nephew, and knowing that some day I would like to be a wife and mother.

Finally, one day I broke down and called my primary physician. I made an appointment and was put on anti-depressants. I was prescribed lexapro, but after a few weeks I went back to the doctor because I felt like they were making me sleep all day. So they gave me effexor, and oh my god was it a lifesaver! Within 2 weeks, I felt happy - which is something I hadn't felt in a loooong time. I was on effexor for about a year and a half. I've been off of it for a few months now, and I feel great. I hope there's no turning back.

I'm not saying anti-depressants will necessarily work for you, but I thought i'd share my story with you to give you some ideas. Don't let your depression get to the point where it literally takes your life from you; it's not worth it. Once you get out of that deep, dark hole you're in, you'll see the world in a brand new light. I promise. :) so keep your head up and get your depression under control; call your doctor!