I have been clean for about a year and a
half now. I am not using any drugs, but
I continue to have drug dreams where I am
still using and its as if things are back
to the old ways. When I wake up in the
morning, I feel really weird like I did
something wrong. Sometimes in my dreams
I am searching searching searching for
those drugs and the high, but I can never
seem to get them.
My question is to anyone that has
experienced this before. How long do
these drug dreams last. Sometimes they
make me want to go out and use again.
Can anyone give me some advice???
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jane-o
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 29 Dec 2003 Posts: 2 Location: new south wales
Drug Dreams Posted: 12-29-03 18:50pm
Ah yea the old drug dreams where you can
never get the stuff into you because of
bizaar things happening around you. Yeah
expect this to keep happening until you
can really say your over it. I have been
using 30 years, I gave up 6 months ago and
still have those horrid dreams. It is
your subconcience having a clear out and
ridding your mind of those cravings, is
the only way I can explain it to you.
Just dont let them get to you, and above
all dont feel guilty about it. You have
done nothing wrong and each day is a step
further to being clean, if you want that.
Lets face it heroin is great, it kills
your over active emotions, but when you
stop using it your emotions have been
dorment and return with a veangence.
There is a saying "emotions denied are
emotions deferred" and aint that the
truth. So good luck and hang in there,
its not easy and you need all the support
you can muster.
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hmrjnh
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Aug 2003 Posts: 30
Drug Dreams Posted: 12-30-03 09:16am
Thanks for your thoughts. I think what
you say is true. When I was using, I
didn't really think of anything but
getting my drugs. I supressed most of my
true thoughts and feelings. I have never
really been a depressed person, and using
for 8 years the drugs just made it go away
if it ever came. Now that I am clean, I
can distinguish my thoughts and feelings
in ways that I never knew how. It suck
sometimes when I get all worked up and I
think of the times when I was using, and
all I would have to do is go cop and I
would be fine. But for the most part, I
really value the clear head and the normal
thoughts that come. I feel like a normal
person now.
Thanks for your help. : :
