Q: Just Writing
asked by:
lonely_angel
on January 3rd, 2006
Experienced User
I am so depressed right now. I had gotten my nails done about a week and a half ago. I was scared to purge so I have npt done it in a lil over 2 weeks but today I took them all off. Since I have stopped purging my self esteem has gone down. I don't know what is wrong with me I keep getting really depressed and I can't help it. Like I have become antisocial in school and don't really like being around people anymore. I feel like I don't have my security blanket anymore. I don't have my blimia. I know it sounds reaaly dumb but ever since I have stopped purging I have like gone down hill with my emotions. I don't have that controll that I once had. All I feel like doin is crying. I don't know why my emotions are like this though. At first I was like ok well I gained my controll back from this thing. Now I don't care if it kills me I think if I stop purging I will becoome morbidly obese b/c all I will do is sit around eating. I don't know I am gonna go. I don't really expect people to write back to this. I was just writing to get things off my chest. Cause who else can I talk to that knows what I am dealing with.......... No one.
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