Hi z,
may I make a comment that you sound so normal that it is refreshing to read your posting? There are many, many people that feel just like you do and I am one of them, but we can do something about it. I know many people are anti-pills and i'll admit, that I was one of those at your age, but there are a few very good pills out there that help with social anxiety and that's all you have. It's really okay. Sometimes I wish they would have had those pills when I was 18, but with my stubborn streak, I probably wouldn't have taken it. It can't hurt you to try a medication for a few months (you have to try it at least 3 or 4 months to see if it will help or not). Call your doctor and make an appointment. Ask a good friend or a relative to go with you. I'd take you it you lived nearby, but... People do love you and will want to help you if you can just get those few words out - "could you please take me to the doctors on..." it really won't hurt that much to talk to the friend and doctor. Think about it this way - you are worth it.

I wish all the best for you...
Carol