Joined: 17 Nov 2005 Posts: 13 Location: adelaide aus
I Dunno Posted: 01-02-06 10:23am
The past 3 years have been living hell for
me.
Im too tired to explain why.
I was on zolft for a while to stop my
cutting.
Ive tryed to kill my self 3 times, well
probally 6, only 3 times ive been admited
into hospital.
Every few days/weeks ill start crying, and
want to do it agian.
I dont wanna be like this, no theryst,
doctor, or pych knows how to fix whats
wrong with me.
Im in one of those moods right now, thats
why im writing this.
I want to cut, but ive got a photoshoot on
monday, so thats stoping me.
But the temptation is there, and I know
thats not normal.
I always lose friends, and bf's because of
these moods I slip into, I turn into a
health forum just to get people to hate me
because im a health forum and noone should
be nice to me.
Ive been putting on the good ol "happy
face" for my family because ive put them
through hell and I hate hurting them.
Im going back to school in a month, I
havnt been to high school for longer them
a few months, and im scared, really scared
im going to fail.. Its grade 11 so its a
big year, considering I havnt done much
high school before.
I just want to be normal, do normal
things, have good friends.
I used to abuse alcohol and drugs, but ive
forsed my self to stop, well I dont have a
chose, I pissed off people with my moods
and now have no way of getting my hands on
that crap, probally a good thing.
Anyways, I better stop because this is
really long.
Any replys, advice, or just understanding
would be great.
Thanks everyone.
- tara
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Houstonpsycho24
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Jan 2006 Posts: 2 Location: Houston
Posted: 01-03-06 10:56am
You need a different medication and should
look into some kind of fitness plan.
That's the best mood enhancer and you
might have some kind of social anxiety, so
talk to your doctor(adderall/xanax) always
helps me when I don't feel like going to
class.
