I think all of us mia girls can relate to you. I know thats how I began. Please get help and before you get full blown bulimia. It is absolutely terrible. Why do you think you feel the need to throw up? The body needs food to survive and to do activity, like running, and if you throw up your body will not function properly and you wont be able to preform your best. If you want to be a better runner, all you need to do is train, eat lots of protein (meat, nuts) and do endurance training. Yeah you do need to stay healthy and have energy and you realise, that if you are throwing up, you wont have energy, you wont be able to train, and you will lose your speed and endurance very quickly. Tell me what you think

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I think you are right. I seem to thrive on not eating much however, I actually run faster with less food. I feel fat if I eat anything besides dry cereal and crackers. Anything else I will throw up. This just started a few weeks ago. I was an opiate addict and now I guess i'm replacing one behavior for another. I never got any mental help only a medication to ween me off the pain pills I got addicted to after my breast augmentation surgery.

Fyi- I was physically addicted. I did not seek out these pills to get high. I hurt for so long I had to take pain pills so long my body became addicted as well as my psyche.

Now the bulima and wanting to be 90 pounds are my new addiction.

This could be a feeling of control maybe? I know the feeling of thriving on no food... But then you will binge and not be able to be the best you can be in your atheletics. You are spending a huge amount of your energy on your binges, right? Planning your days around them, making sure that your calories stay low and your working out is high. Try and get a new -constructive- goal to work towards. What kind of stuff do you like besides from running?

The dsm (diagnostic and statistical manual) states that a person is considered bulimic if he/she throws up at least once a week among other factors. In my opinion you already are a bulimic, or maybe a purging anorexic because you stated that you only eat crackers. You should probably consult a mental health professional so you can seek help. Eating disorders are incredibly dangerous for all people, but for althletes especially since you are under strenuous physical activity and much more at risk for an electrolyte imbalance than a regular person.(this may lead to heart attack and even death.)

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The dsm (diagnostic and statistical manual) states that a person is considered bulimic if he/she throws up at least once a week among other factors. In my opinion you already are a bulimic, or maybe a purging anorexic because you stated that you only eat crackers. You should probably consult a mental health professional so you can seek help. Eating disorders are incredibly dangerous for all people, but for altheletes especially since you are under strenous physical activity and much more at risk for an electrolyte imbalance than a regular person.(this may lead to heart attack and even death.)