I Havent Got the Energy Anymore Posted: 12-30-05 12:19pm
Hi, I cant even be bothered to write this,
cos my thoughts are way to deep to put
into words. I cant / havent got the
exitment in me to live any more, nothing
or noone is gunna change how I feel.
Ive had 4 blood tests cos I feel ill every
week, im enimic, and I cant be arsed to
fight any more infections. Im fat, I
wanna be skinny I wanna be anorexic, I
tried for a child but I couldnt get
pregnant, I tried with the good job, I
tried it aint 4 me. I got a house, I
found a love, I found a step child, I have
it allll but it aint doing caca all 4 me.
I need to get out.
Give me words, songs, lyrics, poems,
pictures and ill relate. But give me a
human and it starts me up, big crowds,
partys,no no no.
Booze, weed and drugs on my own in my car
with my thoughts sitting on the edge of
the world watching the tiny un important
lives being lived is where I belong. Not
now but never. Ha ha
