What's the Point In Living Posted: 12-29-05 18:43pm
I am 18 and since I was about 12 I have
felt like that everything would be better
if I was dead. I try not to feel like
this and put up everyday but no matter
what I do all I want to do is end the
pain. I have self harmed since I was 12
I used to do it on my arms then the
teachers started asking questions so I
started doing it on my legs and the top of
my legs so no one gets hurt by seeing what
I do yto myself, I know everyone probally
thinks im just a stupid teenager.I lost
quite a few friends as they thought I was
just attention seeking so ever since I
have kept it to myself. I don't know
what to do.
Last edited by Linz1987 on 12-30-05 07:18am; edited 1 time in total
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Fairy*Godmother
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Why? Posted: 12-29-05 18:57pm
Hey sweetie, something in your past has
caused you to feel this sadness and self
worthlessness. Trust me.... I have been
there done that and still doin it! Took
me almost 50 years....But its called
"depression". You really need to see a
professional whom you can trust to talk
to. Tell them your feelings and what you
are doing to yourself. I do not
understand why you want to "self harm"
maybe you could explain why it is you do
this to yourself. I remember wishing I
were dead, I just hated life. Almost had
it taken from me three times. I took
several different types of antidepressants
before one actually started working. Now,
I do not allow anything or anyone to upset
me. It took me a long time to realize how
utterly selfish i'd been. So many cancer
patients and others wishing for life. I
now divert my attention to taking care of
homeless dogs and cats. I volunteer at
animal shelters. I do understand...At
least while I am still here on this earth,
I can at least help others. Or try my
best too. That is another reason I am
responding to your message. There so much
good you can be doing with yourself. You
are someone special, you just have to
believe in yourself if you want others
too! I believe in you.....
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Linz1987
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Joined: 29 Dec 2005 Posts: 9 Location: Durham
Posted: 12-30-05 07:01am
I know I should see someone but I just
don't trust them. I have had friends who
have seen a counsellor and have tried to
kill themselves because of it. My school
made me go once but I just convinced her
that I was ok and that I didn't need any
help. I know I shouldn't be so selfish
with my life but I can't help feelin like
this. If I could I would anyone my life
within seconds.
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Jenny77
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Joined: 31 Dec 2005 Posts: 7 Location: Louisiana
Depression Posted: 01-02-06 20:09pm
Hello. It definetly sounds like you have
depression. I should know because I have
struggled with this illness for ten years.
Like you, sometimes I feel life is
useless. However, I have taken
antidepressants and they help me cope with
life. You never really get over
depression, but there are counselors and
medicine that can help you cope. I also
find that my faith helps me to overcome
the darkness. I do not know if you
believe in an afterlife, but I firmly
believe that there is a better place
awaiting for all of us. Please know that
suicide is not the answer to your
problems; do not let the darkness defeat
you, my friend.
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cut-alone92
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Posted: 01-22-06 01:13am
Hey,
death won't solve anything.You may think
it will but it will also hurt alot of
people around you.Don't give up hope in
life and keep your head up. Death isn't
the answer to anything and you were born
for a reason.You wouldn't have been born
if there wasn't a reason for you and you
weren't born just to kill yourself and
thinka bout the things you would miss out
on in life if you killed yourself.
-danielle
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mtgoeson
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Joined: 07 Feb 2006 Posts: 1 Location: Suffolk
Hi Posted: 02-07-06 16:47pm
I know what you mean, life is a continuous
drag. I cant see why we live or what the
point is. I've no idea what would make me
happy, maybe its not been invented yet.
What makes you happy linz?
