You have received a number of answers to the same posting in the
'depression' subforum.

Basically, you need to seek professional intervention.

No one should be abusing you. You need to understand that because
you can do so much for yourself, you must !. Now ! Seek out social
workers and other intervention specialists in your school, community,
city, and state. The effort of seeking help, in itself, is immensely
redemptive, and gives your self-esteem a huge boost.

Dont let the abuse define how you feel about yourself. You need to
counter-condition a whole different set of perceptions to combat the
negative influences around you.

You can perform a simple web search for social services in your area.
We can also help you with that if you give us the name of the city where
you live.