Hey.. You could try and set yourself goals? Say like you wont throw up if your out with friends or more than twice or once a day...? As for the reason, try to slow down your binge. That will help you realise why you are doing it. Maybe you could write down each time you binge the people, the place, the feelings you had, your thoughts, your actions..

What do you think?

Goals? They are difficult when my brain is overriding me with thoughts that i'm fat and what not. I just keep feeling guilty untill i've done the purging and when I start eating I find it difficult to stop- though plenty of people show these symptoms.

I've been doing it everyday since my initial post with exceptions of any time my girl-friend is over.

I've been toying with the idea of going to the doctors but i'm finding this hard.

one more questions

1/ keeping getting a sharp pain in the left side of my body, most often when I lie down for periods of over 5 minutes. This pain appears regardless if I have thrown up.