Terrified But Hopefull [s.o.s]

Well, it happened to me!


I dont know why im writing this but it's nice to see others having this problem. It's hard to talk to anyone else about this so I decided to throw it out here and get some feedback. I 27 soon to be 28.


I've had anxiety and depression in the past so I guess this shouldnt be such a shocker but I never experience full erectile dysfunction. Sure it happend before a few times, but never to this extend.


I broke up with my a girl 5 months ago after dating her for a month. A month later I noticed fleshy bumps in my pubic region. Freaked me out the whole time I waited for the test results. Turned out it was a case of molluscum. I felt lucky in a way, since it's not a serious std but never the less took 4 months and a great amount of effort to clear up properly.


Needless to say I didnt have sex during the entire time and fell into a mild depression. Also fell into a cycle of masterbation, excess masterbation... I never had ed problems with masterbation but there's never performance anxiety associated with that.

Met a girl last week and after this long wait I was happy to break the fast. We went straight to it the night we met. No waiting, more like a one nighter.

I was fairly drunk that night and by 4 a.M. I noticed close to no feeling down there. It was very stressful and although I had std's in my mind the whole night I blamed it on the alcohol. Gave her some stupid excuse and left. Wasnt sure if she was gona call again but she did. I invited her over, didnt drink a drop even took vitamins and herbal stuff like siberian ginsing to calm me down a bit.


We went straight to it again, it started out pretty good, I was fully erect and we were still at foreplay. Then it literaly went away as fast as it appeared. I was sweating and numb. Went to the bathroom, tried everything and I just couldnt get it back. Got her to give me oral and while it helped as soon as I put on the condom it was gone. It goes without saying the whole night was ruined and I feel a cold shiver down my spine everytime I think about it. This has never happend to me before to this extend and while im blaming it on work related anxiety, I still think it might be physical aswell.
I have been feeling emotionaly exhausted and frustrated lately and I was hopping this change would brake this cycle....Boy was I wrong!.... This has brought me down further than anything else ive experienced so far. Got 2 hours of sleep last night and ive been exhausted, angry and frustrated the whole day.

I visited a doctor and gota sample pack on levitra today, it's my only safety net right now but I know this isnt the way it should be for a 27 year old.


I like to get any advice possible from you guys out there. Doctors just precribe drugs and thats never a real solution. I have tried herbal supplements before...Chrysin, tribulus, saw palmetto, amino acids and others. Results have been up and down for me, some days they have helped but results arent consistent. Im thinking of trying tongkat ali and horney goar weed. If any of you have goten results from any of these please share your experience. Im changing my diet aswell and reducing masterbation. Sorry for writing so much...Looking forward to getting some advice.