hi im also feeling very down, im 18, and 23 weeks pregnant with my 1st child. i am stressy towards my partner, and he doesnt deserve it. i am feeling very low, and i need some advice, i am going to talk to my midwife about it, but im just feeling like i am going to be a bad mum, and no matter what anyone says to me, it makes me feel better for a day or two but then i just get back to the way it was before. i dont know what to do, sometimes, as harsh as it sounds, i find myself saying that i am going to kill myself and my baby. i dont want that deep down inside but i just get so down and it hurts that i got a baby inside me, and i think about all her bones and fingers and toes inside me, i look at it two ways, - when im feeling ok, i think WOW its wonderful that i got this incredible little miracle inside me, but when i feel down, i think that i have got these little bones and body inside me, and im totally and utterly disgusted in myself, because it doesnt feel right, and feels as if its disgusting. anyway sorry for going on and on, im feeling down just talking about it now... im just wondering if theres someone out there who understands me, and can help suggest some things maybe...??? please write back, love amie xx