Don't overcomplicate the issue.
Step back. See that you are fixated on the negative. Highlight the
positive. Look closely and you will see the good you are doing,
have done, and are certainly capable of reproducing again.
The fact that you wrote this appeal for help is important evidence
that you do care about yourself and are willing to do more to rid
yourself of these anxieties. Play this up. Build on it.
Your effort requires discipline of the mind.