Sorry sweetie that sounds awful but I think you are right you need help. If u can't keep any food down or not enough food you will die. Call a Dr. And let them now what has been going on they won't judge you I promise.

I don't know where to go I am so scared. Thanks for replying right now im desperate for anyones support. I feel so alone and scraed I don't have the guts to confront a doctor but I know I need to. My ed is spinning out of control and I cant stop it.Cry. Do you got any advice on how to get over this fear of telling someone?

Mxgurlie

I know how you feel and I will be happy to talk with you, I know exacally what your saying, I feel the same way I haven't told anyone, and i'm to scared to, how long have you had this? I know if I tell someone there going to request me to get help. But nobody can make me do anything, considering i'm 26, how old are you? I hope you get back to me, you seem like you need someone to talk to.

Thanks for replying I do need someone to talk to. Ive had this for 5 years and im only 15. Im so scared to tell someone because of the same reasons you are. I dont want to go in the hospital im in school and I dont want to fail this year just because of my ed. I think my friends are catching on to whats happening because they keep saying that im loosing weight and dont look good. I have know idea what im going to do when my parents find out. Ithink my parents are noticing too but I tell them nothings wrong but the only thing is I want to say something b/c I want help. Im just to scared to ask. I dont want to waste my highschool years the way I felt in middle school so deppressed and lonely. How are u doing?
And how long have u had your ed?

Mxgurlie

Hello! Im really sorry to hear that you have been suffering so long without support or guidence. Like you said " I dont want to waste my years in high school (or something like that lol) "...I think maybe you need to change something. Make a change that will help you recover because you need to understand that if things stay the same, then so will your eating patterns and your feelings of depression.I have bulimia not for so long though.... Like.... 10 months? But I still know that its hell having to rearrange your life around eating and lying to friends and feeling so absolutely crap about yourself. Things got realy bad really quick for me, but that was just before I got help (more or less) and then things did change and the way I felt changed. I know that you feel the way I did and its such a relief when you do get help and feel like someone listens to you.. I want that relief for you too.

Love ol xx

All the people who have replied to this forum thanks. You made me gain the guts to confront my denial mother to ask for help for once in my life.