Sick of Cocaine, Want to Get Help, Can't.

Ok, here is the deal.

You may not like what I am going to say, but it’s the truth. If you are strung out on coke like you say you are, there is a very good chance that you can’t stop all by yourself. It is a powerful thing, and it will never let you go for free, never! You may be in way deeper than you even realize. Then again, maybe you do know how bad off you are.

That job you don’t want to lose, it will be history sooner or later. Your boss knows something is wrong, and one day he or she is going to let you go. A coke freak makes for a crappy employee. You know this.

You don’t need to go back to your country, you don’t need to do anything. But if nothing in your life changes, things are going to get a lot worse than they are now. You know this too.

You are telling us what you can’t do. Cant get to an na meeting, people will know. Pal, people probably already know. Being a full time addict and trying to keep it a secret don’t work. People aren’t idiots, the people around you see more than you think they do.

Get into real recovery, narcotics anonymous where you are, or bottom out hard, and do so wherever you wind up. Your options are really quite limited, I think you know that as well.

Your friend in recovery
richard