I don't know how to explain it much better than that. I've sort of suspected i'm bi-polar for a while but i'm afraid i'm just being a hypochondriac. I've told my therapist about my suspicions, but she told me it doesn't mean i'm bi-polar it means i'm just confused.

I've taken lots of internet survey thingies and they all say I should get checked out for bi-polar disorder.

Anyway, i've noticed that I feel and act very childish after i've had a low episode. Like i'll be suicidal and depressed and the next morning want the toys out of the cereal box. It's sort of refreshing but disturbing at the same time. This last time, I felt so childish and had just gotten back from the dentist that mom bought me a barbie doll. Now that I think about it i'm like, "what?!" but there it is, up in my dresser drawer. I also got a coloring book that same day.

My mom thinks it's a sign of "cycling" but I don't know. There doesn't seem to be a pattern so far (i've marked the past 2 or 3 weeks on my calendar).

My question is sort of, "does anybody else experience this?"