I don't know how to explain it much better
than that. I've sort of suspected i'm
bi-polar for a while but i'm afraid i'm
just being a hypochondriac. I've told my
therapist about my suspicions, but she
told me it doesn't mean i'm bi-polar it
means i'm just confused.
I've taken lots of internet survey
thingies and they all say I should get
checked out for bi-polar disorder.
Anyway, i've noticed that I feel and act
very childish after i've had a low
episode. Like i'll be suicidal and
depressed and the next morning want the
toys out of the cereal box. It's sort of
refreshing but disturbing at the same
time. This last time, I felt so childish
and had just gotten back from the dentist
that mom bought me a barbie doll. Now
that I think about it i'm like, "what?!"
but there it is, up in my dresser drawer.
I also got a coloring book that same
day.
My mom thinks it's a sign of "cycling" but
I don't know. There doesn't seem to be a
pattern so far (i've marked the past 2 or
3 weeks on my calendar).
My question is sort of, "does anybody else
experience this?"
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marylou001
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Dec 2005 Posts: 3 Location: Kentucky
Childishness Posted: 12-22-05 21:11pm
Hi!
I don't necesarily want barbie dolls or
toys. But I do like to color and most of
the time act like a childish brat. I
don't consider myself a brat b/c I can't
control my emotions. I scream at my
husband and like a child just cry and cry
when my feelings are hurt or I am upset.
I think everyone with bipolar experiences
different things. We all have ways of
dealing and that might be your way of
dealing. If it makes you happy i'd say go
for it! Wanting toys are not really a bad
thing. Think of guy always wanting video
games those things are considered "toys".
Even if one doctor says you are not
bipolar I would suggest getting a second
opinion or three. Hehe
