I am in love with my boyfriend and we are having bad times more often than we both would like. We both seek couseling on our own but not for couples. We both have issues with our past and how we were raised. We been through a lot in the past year I relocated closer to him moved in with him and we have had short talks about possible marriage again. We are very abusive verbally and emotionally. I am his first and only relationship ans I have two kids. I try to be patient and understanding about that. He thinks a lot about himself as he's so used to for 30 years. I supprot evrything he does and am behind him all the way and that's the problem I am behind him. I want to be at his side not in front or behind. We were raised difeerently and it shows. He never felt the love so he expresses his love differently and very closed up as to me always being open and expressive. He always tells he he wants out and goes back on it continuously. I know he loves me because it does show when things are good but when something happens at work, his family, money he makes it out to be that it is us and it's not but the blame gets put on me. Instead of handling things how I would like he does it his way and his way hurts me deeply. My kids feel the tension and he takes it out on them by having us walk places me losing jobs him not being supportive. My kids suffer with me when he has a bad day. Please help me. We do loveeach other but things that happen around us effect us and he allows it to destroy us. I dont know how much more I can take of the inconsistency and not knowing if he truly wants me.