Hi there
ive had thoughts like that too, who am i? Why am I hear? What am i? That 'i dont know who I am, confusion' feeling. While these questions might sound trivial when they are sooo anxiety/panic filled they make you feel alone, desperate, confused, afraid and depressed.
They can also become also become quite invasive, but its nice too know other people have the same feelings (but wish none of us did!). I know how scared they make you feel and quite alone and trapped in yourself. I started to become paranoid that I was going sczophpric which gives you more things too worry about and it can become a vicious cycle, worrying about worry!
I have too tell you that gym, keeping busy (work and socializing) and presciption lustral tablets have really helped me and now I live a normal life. I have a really good job, go on diving holidays, take presentations to my staff and all manner of things that years ago would have terrified me and seemed impossible.
Whenever I feel these thoughts now, and im sorry too say I dont think the shadow ever really goes mate; I take a deep breath and exhale, then relax and focus on something like lying in the sun on holiday and the cloud lifts and after time they will come to you less and less frequently. I tell them too f**k off now days and have no time for them, I figure that I will get the all the answers when im dead and im going to enjoy the ride while it lasts rather than worry about sh*t I cant control! This is hard toodo at first as your brain keeps saying 'no! Think about this scary stuff!' but I think its a question of reprogramming your brain by staying away from the bad thoughts and disaplining your mind.
I would recomnmed that you avoid heavy acholol and definatley recreational drugs as these both set me back alot of progress over the years and now I only drink in moderation and definatley no drugs!
I hope this helps you and keep fighting mate but I promise you that it will level out for you if you take my advice. Dont dwell on these sites though, accept that other people feel the same, sure, 'cause then you know your not alone but dont trawl them every day as this is reinforcing your subconsious with anxiety by reading these stites your constantly thinking about these thoughts.
You can take control. Its your mind!
Let me know how you are, ill check the site some time in the next month or so.
All the best
dave c
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