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Q: I'm Just So Alone.

asked by: Lost_in_a_werid_world on November 25th, 2005

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Hi everybody,
i;m 16 years old and I really dont no whats what anymore. I hate myself for being so upset because I have no right to be.. I;ve always told my self that.. I have everything anyone could imagine... A great family, a nice house, a safe neighbour hood, used to have friends( have kind of lost them all) but I am so unhappy that I cant even think anymore. I just think its becuase i;m so emotional and thats just my personality but lately... Things have been different... One bad thing happens and then something worse happens. My grandma passed away a few months ago which killed me. I;m still so.... Lost. And in o thats normal to be hurting after a death especially when she was so close to me. But i;ve never felt normal. I lose everybody that I ever care about and now.. I;m scaring myself half 2 death. I keep thinking that it could be the last time i;m with someone I love that they;ll be out of my life in a flash. I;m scared. I dont no y i;m sad. I ahve everything. Everything. But I can never wake up and feel happy. I just want to sit in my room and just cry for the rest of my life. I no i;m 16 and u no i;m probably just going through the " hormones" but I think its more than just that. It hurts to much. I cant take it anymore. I only have one important person in my life (besides my family) that I love... And hasnt let me down.. And I am so scared! All I want 2 do is let that person go because if 1 more thing happens. God help me. I dont no y I am the way I am and y I feel the things I feel.I dont no what happiness is... I just cant feel anything anymore.

Replies(12)

~baby~g~

replied on November 25th, 2005

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Hey hun! I know what your saying..If you wanna talk u can email me.

<33

cezonetheillest

replied on December 9th, 2005

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Hey I know exactaly how you feel. All I can tell you is that it will one day get better if you want it to. I know it is hard and I know that if feels like a hopeless feeling and you dont know what to do. But all I can say is that things will get better. You just have to belive that. I know that is what I have belived for years and I know that everything feels like it gets bad and the it seems to start to get better.

frosk

replied on December 10th, 2005

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I went through the same thing you did lost. My depression hit me when I was 16. I can remember the day. I felt the same way you are right now. I lost all my friends because I didnt know how to feel and I basically lost my personality. I wish I realized then that there is help. I suffered like you are now for 11 years before I realized there was something that could help me. My family didnt understand, I was spoiled to death. They thought there is no reason for me to act the way I did yet I would just feel terrible all the time unless I was asleep. I suggest you find a way to see a doctor or psychiatrist. I will tell you that after 11 years of feeling like **** I was prescribed one antidepressant. I swear within a day I was a different person. Its truly amazing. I am not saying that you will feel different in a day, but it is worth a try if the doctor says so. Please dont sit there and let this take over your life like it almost did mine. I now have a wife and 2 daughters which I never thought would happen. Go get help.

BlindingLight

replied on March 24th, 2007

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Hey mate

There isn't much I can say or anyone can say that will make you feel instantly better. All I can tell you is you're not alone. I'm in the same position as you right now......perhaps for different reasons, but with the same outcome. I'm sure it can only get better!

Jouri

replied on April 11th, 2007

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I Completely Understand

I agree with frosk. My mother loved tha hell out of me and still does and spoiled tha hell out of me growing up and it completely ruined my life. I never begged my parents for anything, I never liked being spoiled because I didn't want other people to make it seen like I couldn't do anything or get anything for myself. It was all about self pride. All of that eventually caused my parents to be too overprotective and too paranoid about things and other people when I tried to make freinds. I'm 22 years old and I'll be 23 next month in May and I'm still treated like a child. I have a good job working at the hospital and have been there for 5 years. I dont drive or have a liscence. I still feel hopeless and feel like I cant do anything right. Trust me, I know how you feel when it comes too depression. I had some freinds but they all moved away and I'm still stuck in the country. I felt as if I didn't know why GOD continues to llow me to live and he knows how much I hate myself and my life. Things will somehow get better, dont give up yet.

sleepy_pandora

replied on April 11th, 2007

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And I Thought I Was Alone...

Hi there lost..
I am in your position at the moment.. exact one and although i lost my grandpa 3 years ago, it never really did get out of me.

I feel low every other day and i just want my loved ones to leave me alone. I tend to say the wrong things and i'll be more upset when they retort and say things that i find mean. It is hard to explain. Coupled with my migraine attacks, i feel so helpless at times. I feel scared everyday. I feel like i'm not worthy of having my loved ones especially my ex boyfriend.

Thanks for opening up. Without sounding sadistic, it makes me happy to know that i am not alone. I hope you'll feel better to know that you are not alone as well. I think we'll past this stage soon... hopefully.

But like what others have already mentioned, perhaps you should see a doctor if you cannot control it further. But try telling yourself that this in an internal thing. I tell myself everyday that i'll get better if and only if i help myself. Luckily, i opened up to a few friends who have since, been checking on me everyday and telling me how much they care, making life more meaningful at times.

iwanttodie

replied on April 17th, 2007

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You Think You Have Problems?

You think YOU have problems?
my families worse...
2 commited suicide
4 got mad
the rest don't care...
and i've developed a "invisible" friend
no one can see him...
i'll die one morning...
i asked him to kill me when hes' ready...

themandan

replied on April 27th, 2007

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Hey I Just Wanted to Say This

im in my mid 20s in collage but i know im not getting good grades. I really don't want to do my work because im not having any fun here. I really dont have any good friends here or anywhere else. I know some of that is because i dont approch people alot but i don't understand why they dont say hi to me. I have both a funny/silly side and a serious side. i would really like to meet a girl around here and to go out and have a good time. This college is small about 300. I am not sure if theres nobody here who wants anything to do with me or if i could do something to get noticed more. I want to add that im a really good basketball player and i like singing to songs. I think i would be alot of fun around people. I know i sleep to much but with nobody to hang out with i don't know what else to do.

beckums

replied on April 28th, 2007

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I Think Everyone Feels This

everyone has a time in there life when they feel like you do at the moment, i went through the same as you when i was your age. where it feels like the end of the world and that is made evern worse when you lose someone so close, and you dont want to go on without them. but we have to and with time it does get easier.
when i was 19 one of my very close friends was killed in a bike accident, my world fell apart going from talking every day to never hearing his voice or seeing his big grin again, i got to the point of never wanting to get up and i didn't want to see people, and then a month later my anutie died suddley and the three months after that my grandma died and then eight months after that my uncle died suddley and then a few weeks after that a friend from work was killed in a car crash, it got to the point when i didn't get up some mornings i was that down.
but then i spoke to someone who said to me, do you think all of these loved ones would want you crying and morning them still, they would want you to see just how quickly things can be taken away from you and you should live every minuet of everyday to the full, so then you have no regrets of not making the most of your friends and family coz there the people that matter dont push them away embrace them and live to the full.
one day you'll wake and look forward to the rest of the day, your still young theres so much for you to see and do. just go for it .
good luck

Ninjight

replied on May 8th, 2007

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Re: I'm Just So Alone.

Follow me, i will show you how to be free

Lost_in_a_werid_world wrote:

plkoijnm

replied on May 15th, 2009

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the cure isnt meds

hi, im austin and im 17. and i want to say, yeah, i was in that boat but i'll tell u what, now im the happiest person alive today! and i thought the worst thing i could do is keep it to myself. i sat down in my room yet again drowning myseld in tears and gloom thinking no one could help me... and it came to me that no can help me... but myself. so i spent the next few hours spending the next few days spending the next few weeks trying as hard as i could to just think logicically. and after i got that down i asked my self, why am i sad? and that question came to an answer. I want something, i need something. so i asked myself, what do i want, what do i need? and with time spent thinking and reasoning, it boiled down to purpose. i needed purpose. humans live for purpose. the purpose of life itself is only to be happy and find your purpose. so spend some time to switch your think for a bit and look at your with out the veils of distraction, distortion or self demise and really take a look at yourself truthfully. be honest with your self. and some thing you will have to find out by interacting with other people too. and yes while a significant part or your feelings may be hormones, doing this WILL help you fell SO much better. remember that your purpose doesnt have to be epic, just something that fulfils you. well i hope this find you and all others well.

if u need to talk about it feel free to write me.

s0ulfire

replied on October 13th, 2009

New User

WOW

Holy cow

And i thought i was alone

In depression since 5 years since i was 16
My friends back stabbed me( best friends)
My gf left me for a senior
And im FAILING every grade and im already 2 years behind everyone

I HATE MY DAMN SELF

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