I have a serious anger problem, it led me to recently start punching walls, cursing my teachers out and even strangling my cat and killing lizards and even contemplating doing something even more insane. I dont know why, but I just get angry. Sometimes I find myself so absorbed in my thoughts it feels like they are almost happening, I can almost feel the sensations and soemtimes find myself drifting so far from reality as to almost act upon them...I think thats schizophrenia but im not sure, but I have very bad anger issues that have been with me all my life. Sometimes I just punch walls, o0ther times I break things, and then other times I stare people down until they eventually leave. My glaring issue is so bad people think im going to kill them just coz I look at them, and the things I say too...Im really afraid im going to go off the deep end and really hurt someone.


At times, I feel like im about to become something else, almost like lycanthropy...Its only happened once, but I literally felt myself shifting into soemthing else, and I could almost see it and feel it, but it sorta just stopped outta the blue...And sometimes I hear voices. I think im going insane and I really just want to be able to live with these disorders without medication...

I also have violent thoughts, and the idea of seeing someone die or even other things sometimes is sexually a turn on, and im quite embarassed by it. We watched a video of a guy getting shot in the head, and I found myself becoming really aroused by this thought(im a girl)and it made me feel ashamed...I dunno, but I have a deep infatuation with being evil and satanic, and im beginning to think that this has been with me since birth...Please help me!