Could I be honest for a min. Sometimes I
feel like giving up on life. Like there
is nothing left for me in this world. Sad
part. I am only 21 years old, and I have
two beautiful children. I love my kids,
but it's like I still haven't accepted
that they aren't going anywhere. I know
stupid.
When I was fourteen my mother passed away.
She was hit walking home from work, by
some women who wasn't paying attention.
Every since then I have been bouncing
around from place to place like I don't
have a care in the world. Though I am a
little older, I think back and that stuff,
I think about my mother alot and what
happend and its like I won't accept that
she is gone. I wake up sometime and I am
like mom. Expecting she will be there.
And sad reality she won't. It's not fair
to my kids. Because sometimes I feel like
just getting up and leaving. Like the
world around me is crashing down. I get
like that from time to time. Serious
panicked attacks, low self-esteem. Just
wanting to give it up. All of it. Never
do I dream of hurting my kids, no shape or
form. Its me...I think I have nothing
left. But they need me. And I am serious
sometime I have no idea what I am going to
do? Any advice on keeping sane? Hit me
up...
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Ms_sweetie_18
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Nov 2005 Posts: 47 Location: Mississippi
Posted: 11-16-05 16:08pm
Plzz dont give up I kno the pain u is goin
tho I last my daddy when I was 15 I found
him in the house in the chair dead.. Just
think about how yo kids would miss you if
did u something to yo self.. I feel like
u feel all the time but I b like my daddy
wanted me to do something in life and
thats what i'm goin 2 do.. Plzzz dont
give up god is with you truth me on that
he goin to turn ur whole life around one
day trust me ok
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YourBuddyDanielle
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Nov 2005 Posts: 10
Posted: 11-17-05 15:27pm
I feel a lot like you do sometimes. My
mother committed suicide 1 month ago, even
though I wasn't really close to her
because she left when I was about 2, I
still really felt it. I'm not very close
with my dad, or any other family member.
All I have are a few good friends, and
they make it worth while. I feel like
giving up a lot as well, but if it is one
thing I have learned, something always
manages to come along, or someone, which
makes you change your thinking, but it
eventually comes back, I know that. But
you were put on this earth, not to give
up, but to impact the world. And that's
what you should do, or at least try to.
Don't give up on the world.
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gemski
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Nov 2005 Posts: 11
Posted: 11-17-05 21:24pm
Hi I am 23 and I know what you are going
through. I was eleven and my dad was
killed. All my life I have felt empty
and alone. I wondered why me. I have
had anxiety, no self-esteem I think about
him everyday of my life. I use to pray
to god if he came back I would never ask
for anything. I miss him alot. Have
you tried talking to a therapist or anyone
close to you about your feelings. That
was alot of my problem. I wouldnt let
go, I wouldnt tell anyone my memories of
him or of what happened. I am going to
a therapist and starting to accept what
has happened to me and open up. Dont
give up, your not going crazy by anymeans.
