Could I be honest for a min. Sometimes I feel like giving up on life. Like there is nothing left for me in this world. Sad part. I am only 21 years old, and I have two beautiful children. I love my kids, but it's like I still haven't accepted that they aren't going anywhere. I know stupid.
When I was fourteen my mother passed away. She was hit walking home from work, by some women who wasn't paying attention. Every since then I have been bouncing around from place to place like I don't have a care in the world. Though I am a little older, I think back and that stuff, I think about my mother alot and what happend and its like I won't accept that she is gone. I wake up sometime and I am like mom. Expecting she will be there. And sad reality she won't. It's not fair to my kids. Because sometimes I feel like just getting up and leaving. Like the world around me is crashing down. I get like that from time to time. Serious panicked attacks, low self-esteem. Just wanting to give it up. All of it. Never do I dream of hurting my kids, no shape or form. Its me...I think I have nothing left. But they need me. And I am serious sometime I have no idea what I am going to do? Any advice on keeping sane? Hit me up...