Recently I confronted my boyfriend of 6 years about why he has been so withdrawn from me. We live together and have for quite a while. He is obsessed with his hobby. So much so that our whole lives seemed to revolve around it. I lost alot of friends and moved to this small town with him. I never really made any new ones. After confronting him dozens of times and getting no answer, he spits it out. He doesn't love me. He never did, and just didn't know how to tell me. I was lonely before, I was always in his shadow and people only knew me as his girlfriend. I really love him, and always imagined us together. Now it is as if my whole life has been ripped away from me without a reason. Ive been depressed before, but this has lasted over a month and a half now. I am in my late 20s and have been diagnosed with glaucoma. The tests and treatment have hurt me financially. I am not secure enought to be able to move out. Never mind that naggin feeling in the back of my head that im going to be blind and all alone. Ive never been so hurt in my life. I cant concentrate at work, and I keep thinking why... What happened? How could he do this to me. How could he not love me all these years. I am very easy going and people would always tell him how lucky he was to have me. How could everyone see it but him. I have been stripped of my life. My family loves him, I feel, almost more than they love me. I dont know how to tell them. I dont know what to do now, im all alone. Im stuck in this little town, living with him as "friends". No one to talk to. Broke. Broken hearted, seriously depressed. I keep having break downs and im sure he thinks im crazy. Ive been fighting an urge to hurt myself. I dont know what to do or where to turn now. And the worst part, I can see how relieved he is now after getting it off his chest. I dont know what to do or where to turn. I dont want to get up in the morning, I cant sleep at night. He seems very cold and materialistic to me now. He wants to be friends, and the truth is he is my best friend, who I also happen to be in love with. How am I supposed to deal with this. I hate being so sad, I used to smile all the time. Now I just cry.