Hey - I can't say that i've been through as much as you, but I just moved out of the country for graduate school to get away from similar things and i've gotten worse, too. I'm afraid I might even be schizophrenic, but i'm going to see someone this week. Have you considered going to a counselor? Your college must have something like that for students. I don't know if you've ever been, but there's no shame in it, and you'll actually feel better (albeit slightly) by just getting an appointment.

Hope your situation gets better - i'm skipping class, too. Hehehe

Well, actually my life has been a cakewalk compared to a lot of people, but I appreciate the feedback. I haven't gone to a counsler at my school because my dad has close contacts with the school, and the last thing I want is for him to find out I have these feelings, and that i'm failing college. (the man has insanely high expectations, which is why my little sister is his favorite...) good to know i'm not the only one skipping...

Well you should check to see if there's some sort of confidentiality clause in working with a counselor. I believe even school counselors are bound by hepa (i think that's the acronym) rules of patient confidentiality, and you can at least tell the counselor to keep his mouth shut. And if doesn't... You can probably sue, hehe.


I am finding my situation rather strange, too. My life has been great. Great friends, I get to travel, rub elbows with the top people in my field of study, loving and understanding parents... So why I am lethargic all the time, depressed and possibly schizophrenic is beyond any logic besides a phychological/physical abnormality. Good luck, man.


Ps, I don't know what you're doing to occupy your time or to escape, but have you heard of second life? Secondlife

Hi, I didn't have a very good time in high school at all.. I had many friends, or should I call them acquaintances, but none of them actually had a nice, long, friendly conversation with me. My parents say that i'm an antisocial, and eventhough i'm not, i'm starting to believe that it's true.. All the way back to sixth grade, a boy who hated me so much that he spread rumours about me, and soon I was labelled "the pervert of the year"... Yes, I was "the pervert of the year" when I was in sixth grade.. Geez, at that time, I didn't even know what "pervert" meant..

For the first few months in college, I flunk out almost every quiz and i'm the worst student for my programme in my college.. I then spent loads of time studying and revising my work.. Finally managed a b grade for my chemistry paper.. Guess what..? They said I cheated.. For my biology multiple choice question paper, I got an a grade and they said that I was lucky.. What the..?!

Hwillis8, i'm sure you're pretty much the same as me, if not worse.. But hey, it's your life.. Don't break down just because a group of guys call you gay or if that grubby girl thinks that you're a pervert.. They're all just jealous of you for who you are.. You know yourself.. Just turn a deaf ear to these people.. I'm sorry that i'm not helping much.. 'coz i'm not good with words.. When someone call me names or teases me, I may cry but I will then remember these words from mariah carey's song, can't take that away.. It makes me feel more confident of myself.. See if it does the same for you..

They can say anything they want to say, try to bring me down, but I will not allow anyone to succeed. And they can try hard to make me feel that I don't matter at all but I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams 'cause there's a light in me that shines brightly. They can try but they cant take that away from me..

Thanks xenakisx, september65, your words really help. I'll try to keep that song in mind september.