Hello everyone,
im a 23 year old female currently in the battle of losing weight and going no where. I am not starving myself but im constantly finding myself in a restaurant with women and men who are beautiful to me, my friends say they are to skinny, and how I want to become them. It has become so obsessive that I have found myself holding my driver id up to models in pictures and smile at that thought that I will be beautiful like them if I keep doing what im doing. I dont how this came about but I dont know how to stop it either. I do binge. I am currently at a weight of 256 and I have lost from over 310 . I binge in the sense of over eating then not eating. I have never thrown up from this and find that repulsive to stick my finger down my throat. Its like when I see myself getting thinner and my boyfriend comments on how good I look when I lost weight that if I gain it back he says nothing. I just want to keep losing. Im stuck in a cycle and have no one to talk to. Please someone give me advise....