Ok I am very confused and have no one to talk to I am just looking for a little advice. Well I am 19 my husband is 21 we have been married for a year and 4 months. We dated for 2 and a half months before he propsed to me and 3 weeks after that we got married it all seems so rushed now and I am having so many doubts I dont know if I still love him the way I used to especially since I still have some kind of feelings for some one from my hometown. I dont feel like I am appreciated in this marriage he is in the military and I sit here at home and wait for him when I dont have to I could have moved back home and not thought twice about it. I dont know if I should follow my heart and leave and pursue happiness with the other guy or if I should try to tough it out... I feel like I am goin crazy!!!!
Well, first of all, it seems like you were being really selfish marrying this man when you still had feelings for someone else. That's not being honest with yourself or your husband.
Now, if you are unhappy in the relationship you are in, then you need to do whatever you have to do to make yourself happy. If that means divorcing your husband and pursuing a relationship with another man, then so be it. Your husband deserves to have an honest woman that loves him and if you can't provide that then you need to move on and let him find someone that can give that to him.
Do some soul searching and figure out what's going to be best for the relationship and for yourself. I wish you all the best! :-)
I knkow I need to do some soul searching I am goin back home for a few months to sort things out hopefully I will figure things out while I am there I dont want to keep him with me if there is something better for him out there.
That sounds like the best thing you can do for yourself and for your husband. He should respect you more if you let him know how you feel and you're not leading him on when your heart could possibly belong to someone else. I hope everything works out for you guys. Good luck! :-)