I think i'm schizophrenic because for
about a year now, anytime i'm alone in the
house, or everyone else is asleep, I
sometimes hear footsteps in the house, or
doors opening and shutting. It terrifies
me, and once resulted in me hiding for an
hour or so in my greenhouse with the
kitchen knife. One day I started to get a
bad feeling about my parents bedroom and
it resulted in my refusing to go upstairs
to hoover and actually becoming hysterical
because I didn't want to go upstairs.
Also recently I keep getting the feeling
that people can read my mind, or are
spying on what i'm doing every moment of
the day, as if they have cameras set up
around the house. Also during the past
few months I haven't been my usual self
around friends. It's like I suddenly
can't deal with too many people being
around me, it scares me. It's the same
when a friend shouts out suddenly, even if
it isn't directed at me, or if i'm in
class and everyone is talking. I suddenly
feel like I want to escape and get really
angry at anyone who tries to talk to me or
comes too close.
Thing is, i'm only 14 and I don't want to
tell my parents coz I don't think they'd
believe me. I don't know what to do, but
I don't want it too get any worse either.
Is this schizophrenia?
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speedzup
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 16 Jan 2005 Posts: 15 Location: speedoz travlling circus
Posted: 11-03-05 01:35am
I think you may have paranoia, I used to
get that whole people can read my mind and
camera thingy when I was paranoid. It
doesnt help that your in your early teens
so your hormones are probably all over the
place which makes you feel unsure of
yourself and everyone around you.The
paranoia is maybe resulting in your jumpy
reactions toward people shouting bescause
you obviously dont feel secure.I really
feel for you, I was really ill with
paranoia for about 2 and a half years. At
the beginning of my illness I was just
paranoid, then I got myself into such a
state that I became schizophrenic (one
minute your this and the next minute your
that), which eventually led to a period of
psychosis(loss of touch with reality)
.Mine only got that bad because I didnt
take any medication. I think you should
speak to your mum or dad or a grownup that
you can trust and get this sorted out.
You can get medication and a professional
to talk to about all your thoughts and
feelings.
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salamander
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Nov 2005 Posts: 2 Location: N.Ireland
Posted: 11-04-05 14:29pm
I think I will...It's just, there's been
days when it's been really bad and I
havent wanted to talk to people at all,
and I convince myself that I have to tell
someone, then I put it off, and a few days
go by when nothing happens. So then I
decide not to because nothings wrong. But
I am going to tell someone now. Thanks
for helping me
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sandals527
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Nov 2005 Posts: 32 Location: Up-State NY
Posted: 11-04-05 14:57pm
Awww hunnie, I feel for you, but ya know
it could be depression also, a lot of
teens who are getting "hormonal" becuz of
the changes in your body suffer from
different forms of depression.... I know
I went threw it, and I got to the point
that I started cutting myself to stop the
"voices" in my head.... If you think its
too hard to talk to someone, then maybe
you can write a note to your parents or
school nurse, or councler.... Someone, I
know you are scared, but you need to get
help before somehthing bad happenes to
you! I wish you the best!
